Look at my cutie family. I agree, I should have been in there.... but look how nice looking they all are.
I enjoyed listening to the General Conference talks this weekend. The biggest things that stuck out to me are:
1. I felt hope in the possibility of raising my children in the gospel, and the importance to do so.
2. The need to continue with family history.
3. I can disagree without being disagreeable... the need to be kinder to those I associate with.
This week will be week 6 after my surgery and my 3rd Metho injection. And just for the record...
Here are what my hcg levels have looked like:
2/22/10: 1,570,000
week 1:5500
week 2: 2200
*went to the hospital because of heavy bleeding and numbers had gone up to 2400
week 3:1900
week 4: 2800
first Mtx shot
week 5: 2730 (so not a huge drop, but pretty normal to not see a huge drop after the first shot.)
I feel like I have been doing pretty well with the shots... not gonna lie they really do drain me, and it does not excite me to think I probably have at least a couple more months of this. But God is blessing me to feel extremely motivated to do all sorts of projects and try things that I haven't tried previously... mostly in the kitchen ie. the cake, the ham. Cooking has had such a healing effect for me lately. When I am busy trying to read the recipe and get together all of the ingredients I forget somehow about how tired I am. And the rewards are amazing as well!
I think the hardest side effect of the chemo, is I feel like I don't think quite clearly with it. I forget things easily, my words don't seem to come as easily, I make people repeat things that they just told me, I have a harder time making decisions ie. at the grocery store. I feel that I must be really annoying to be around right now... and I am sorry for you people who have to deal with me on a regular basis... like my children lol. But, they hopefully are young enough to forget.
7 comments:
Megan. I am certain that nobody is annoyed with having you around right now. Just think of the alternative,.. They are infinitely grateful that they are not facing the option of not having you around. Trust me. Everyone around you is counting their blessings that this is not a more serious problem that cannot be cured.
2ndly,.. i wanted to echo the disagree without being disagreeable. When the bretheren make decisions in the church about things they want to do like a certain technology they want to pursue or a website they want to make they do not act until there is a unanimous vote of action. Now if you think that all of the bretheren have the exact same idea about how things should be done you would be completely wrong. So if you can just imagine those men sitting around the board discussing this and can you see any of them disagreeing disagreeably? I thought it was really interesting that they brought this up in conference because it's been a great testimony to hear about how the bretheren do come to make decisions because they go about it in the spirit of humility and discuss differing viewpoints but with the spirit such that as they discuss they all learn from the spirit what the lord's will is and all other viewpoints eventually fall away. I hope some day I can learn to disagree agreeably,.. but more than that learn to discuss and seek the Lord's will in my decisions to help facilitate that. What a great thing to have shared in conference I think. I really liked that it was brought up.
That ham looks gorgeous! And your kids are adorable, I can't wait to see everyone in a few months! And I love the coke can in the background...that is so Geren! Love you Megs, Happy Easter!
That really IS a monster of a ham! Look at you go! Those pictures of the fam are adorable! Don't worry about not being in them...someone has to take the picture, right? (or at least that's what I keep telling myself ;) Sorry again about the stress and exhaustion w/the chemo, but so glad you're finding some distraction in the cooking. I'm sure your family doesn't mind one bit :)
The ham looks delicious! The pics are adorable! Conference was amazing! I'm glad you're finding an outlet with cooking! Wish I could help you guys!
Oh Megan, that ham is HUGE!!! So funny. I bet it was scrumptious. I like what you said about conference. Evan and I both commented on how many of the talks were based around children and the power of strong families. I love how conference gives me the strength to keep going in this wicked world. I can't even imagine how reassuring it is to hear when you are raising some cute kiddos. Glad to hear you are doing alright! You are such a great example of strength to me. You go girl.
I really love your good attitude with all the difficulties you have to face right now. Please know you are in my thoughts and prayers. I loved seeing those pictures of your family and that mouthwatering ham (you have talent, I must say). I hope life gets a little easier as time goes on. Thinking of you.
OK.. I think we should just go there for the holidays!!! The Ham was perfect... Have you been watching the cooking channel again?Not only was that beautiful but to see your levels drop... YEA!!Another thing that looked beautiful was your family... how cute! I'm glad your staying busy... it is a healer.
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